Look up at the passing clouds.
Among them a dark stork
Raises its head and rattles its beak
-Yuan Chi
Four hours of sunshine, followed by four hours of darkness, and sometimes moonlight. Less and less moonlight, as the fuel from the moon's core was sucked dry by the bat-creature. Frequently she would find it clinging like a cat to a ball of wool, slender fangs piercing the moon's silver flesh, shaking with effort and pleasure, dripping a viscous mixture of yellow saliva and sweat onto the hardwood floors. Then she would attack it with the broom, or the mop, or the butter knife - whatever was at hand - and after a few weak blows (always hindered by her unwillingness to inflict pain) it would disengage and scarper, leathery wings flapping, bald pate bouncing against the roof. Its body was roughly the size and shape of two apples, one balanced on the other, and apart from its head, was covered in a light brown fur. She called it Sinclair.
Patience was her name, and patience was her game. The malignant Sinclair, who had at one time destroyed all the plastic light fixtures in the house, as well as all the lamps and glass bulbs, could not ruffle the feathers of this imperturbable peacock, nightly sleeping in a bed of bones and faded tapestries as if in a nest. Somewhat thin and carelessly elegant, her bird-like features were so pronounced that in a dimly lit room you might mistake her for a giant owl, albeit an anorexic one. Her eyes had a sharpness to them, not round like marbles, but cut like diamonds into a fierce symmetry. Her long thin limbs dripped with grey rags that fluttered when she moved, soaring behind her on the few occasions that she had cause to run. At times she would burst into song, and her voice was as sweet and pure as that of any nightingale or lark, though a little empty, a little dispirited.
With the sun and the moon shifting from room to hall to attic every few minutes, the house was a monochrome kaleidoscope, a world of shifting forms and perspectives, where shadows encroached on shadows and enveloped each other like clouds, and bursts of light erupted from a crack or a rise on a windowpane. And in this forest of radiance and gloom, Patience went about her duties, ceasing only when, once every four hours, both the moon and the sun winked out and hovered in some corner like fat black spiders for the next four hours. Even Sinclair would sleep then, or so Patience guessed he must, though she had no idea where he went, and had no intention of ever following him. A faint glow, coming from the central room, could be perceived at these times, but that was all the light in the world. In fact it had been the source of all luminescence in the house for aeons immemorial: Alyson, the crystal horse of light.
One day Patience awoke from a characteristically short sleep, feeling a very profound sense of loneliness. It was hardly the first time. All her attempts at personifying anything in the house that showed the remotest signs of life, by giving them names, and in the absence of personalities assigning them moods and traits—all such efforts amounted only to a weak shield between her calm state of mind and the fact of her solitude. Though loneliness could not disrupt her calm, it permeated her every action with quiet sorrow, and time itself seemed to slow and almost stop, as she went about cleaning the floors, wiping the walls, and dusting the eternal dust, feeling like nothing more than a servant to the house and its need for immaculateness. The moon and the sun appeared less often and rolled sluggishly around in their off-kilter orbits, as if they were affected by her moods, which she supposed they very well might be. There was much in the house that seemed connected, having either a single source, such as the light that came from Alyson, or being tied to one another by visible hinges invisible strings. Gret the pale moon and Bert the tangled sun were bound to Sinclair, though he was their antithesis and their destroyer, by some mysterious force; perhaps fate. The same force or a close relation held the walls against the floor, the ceiling above the walls, and universe outside from the space inside.
She was washing the dishes, her fingers wrinkled into long claws, when she heard the ominous flapping of Sinclair's papery appendages. A stack of unclean, ceramic plates was on the bench to her right—where they came from she had no idea, and had nobody to ask for answers in any case—and a smaller, carefully placed pile was to her left, clean and white. The hot soapy water, another phenomenon without any readily apparent fountainhead, was steaming prodigiously, and she could not see out the window before her. Bowing her head into the midst of the steam, she listened to the muted sound of Sinclair's podgy body colliding with the moon, his clumsy hands scraping across its crumbling surface, and the chink as his fangs broke into it. Then there was no sound but a frenzied slurping. Patience withdrew her hands from the sink, and automatically headed for the broom closet, but stopped halfway. She realised that she had just made a potent and irrevocable decision in the recesses of her conscious mind, sublimated even before she had toyed with the idea. She had chosen not to stop Sinclair from killing the moon, and the fate of the house now raced before her eyes as clear as if it was already happening.
First, the moon is drained completely, and crashes to the floor, smattering into a thousand dry pieces which will never be swept up. Then, little by little, the sun suffers the same, darkening more slowly perhaps, but no less inevitably. Perhaps Sinclair himself starts to glow then, and if not, he soon will, as he makes his move on Alyson, riding her neck like a bloated horsefly, a midget bat-winged vampire, drinking the bioluminescent fluid that is her blood. Then darkness, pure and complete. Sinclair, too fat to move, lying shivering on the floor and writhing in exquisite agony, begins to wither and shrink and then ceases to be. And Patience, waiting in her nest of bones, shaping them around her into a cage; Patience who is no longer herself, but watches from a mute perspective as the fragile, bird-like body of a girl goes about preparing herself for an everlasting sleep. But before she can finish, strange hands emerge from the darkness and intercede, dismantling her prison and lifting her up; and then the loneliness ends.
Indeed, it already seemed all but gone, and she could sense the vague essence of beings outside the house, waiting to enter by the gate that the darkness would open. Patience returned to the sink, deaf to the workings of Sinclair, and on an impulse wiped a hand across the steamy surface of the window. The world that she saw out there, its growing immediacy, and her belief that its alien denizens would soon be joining her, gave Patience the first real sensation of pleasure she had ever had.


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