...shades of grey...

[night faerie]

RE: http://www.enchantedquill.net/forum/...1&postcount=71

funny thing, while going through my father's things, I came across a funny picture. Funny if you knew my dad, who was a mild, reserved kind of guy. It was a pic of him about 24 years old, lying back on a bed, laughing heartily and surrounded by four lovely young women. They're all lying all over him & laughing giddily. I showed it to my mom & was all, um...

She told me it was from when he went on his trek across Europe when he went to pick up the car (see above link). He fell in with a tour bus (same bus referenced in the aforementioned link). The tour bus happened to be for a women-only tour. So he was the cock in the hen house so to speak.

I later came across a couple of letters he wrote to a couple of the women on the tour, thanking them for taking him in & reminiscing about the experience. Apparently he never mailed them, haha.

In other news, my mom told me a funny story today. When she & my dad were dating she spent the night at his apartment and he gave her a pair of his pj's to wear. At his behest she was posing on his bed in his pjs and he took a picture. He promised her he would destroy it, and she never saw it again. Until today, when she found it in one of his file cabinets. Haha. 43 years ago. He was a funny guy, my dad.

Remind me to make you a list of all the things we found when going through his things, it'll be a doozy.

[night faerie]

Hello world, I am D-runk. Drunk enough I can't spell. I can't get myself to drink lately, I like keeping all my faculties while Peanut is around. But chrono & Apoc are here, sober & I am comfortable enough....

I'm reading this book... it's a biography about this young girl's experience with alcoholism. It chronocles her experience with drinking from age 14-23. It's very prolifically written, beautiful prose really, but it is like watching an anti-drug infomercial in the middle of the night... it just makes me want to drink. To succumb to the warm, numbing and familiar embrace of liquor.

It is beauty. The world. I know it's unpopular & some would argue, unreal; to see such beauty through the haze of alcohol. It is what it is, and it is what I feel at the moment. I think you probably see what you're looking for; but whatever, I see incredible & awe-inspiring beauty and poignancy. But you know... it is what it is.

ok my vision is failing... seeing a little in double so... probably good to stop now. I have so much love for you all, albeit somewhat artificially amplified.