Tossels and thoughts from Amelia

[Amelia]

Well, Im at work and its kinda slow so I thought I would just start my weblog. WOOHOO!!!

Im very glad that Malc showed me the way to here. I was away for 3 months due to being in the Middle East. I missed everybody. I was so happy that Mike is here he is My Admin God!!! **toussels to Mike**

Spokane is so different than San Diego. When I got back to San Diego after my summer vacation in Kuwait, I was not really lonely for male attention. I went on a couple of dates that went well and made some very bad decisions that I will blame it on the vodka. Anyway, I learned that I will never date younger men again. Well, maybe but I would need to train them so it will have to be a long term relationship cause once I have trained the young lad I wouldnt want to give him up. Hes trained!!! Anyway, since I have been back to Spokane....Im a leper, invisible to men. Its odd. I mentioned this to my friend and all she can say is "welcome back to Spokane".

Im not sure what else to write about for the moment. I will write more later!

[Amelia]

Thanks to Dregsy I realized that I spelled toussel wrong. But is toussel the correct spelling of the word? Hold on let me check.

**insert elevator muzac rendition of love shack**

well, I dont have spell check on this and there is no dictionary at work, which makes sense seeing I have no need for a dictionary for anything work related.

Since we had no cheescake today (please read highs and lows thread for a synopsis) so I picked up 3 chocolate cookies and they have chunks of white chocolate in them. I usually dont like white chocolate but these are really good cookies. However they do not make up for the delicious fluffy rich sinfully decadent cheesecake.

So, I need to make sure I am spelling toussel correctly. I think I am since I usually spell it toussel and we have many spell-correctors here.

[Amelia]

well Arch, bless his little heart, pm'd me some links and it turns out I was spelling the word wrong. Its spelled tousel. I have used one too many s. WOW. I have spelled that word that way for years and noboby had ever mentioned that the word is spelled wrong. WOW. I think this is a first. Am I right? Wolfbrother better be informed of this. Isnt he one of those spell checker guys? I think he is. He should be ashamed of himself! HAHAHAHA!

**toussels archs head**

See, I didnt push you into the pull! I guess its not as much of a compulsion as I thought!

Edit: Damn I spelled the word wrong.


**tousels archs hair** its going to take some getting used to!

[Amelia]

Im worried that I have some mental problems from being activated. I have insomina, or it takes me longer than usual to get to sleep. I didnt decorate my apartment for Christmas, which I always do and Ive had problems finding things to talk about with my friend when we usually have something to say to one another. So, I wonder if Im afflited with some post tramatic stress disorder which is odd since I didnt have anything tramatic happen while over there and when I got back to California I slept fine, its happening now that Im deactivated and home. Im happy to be home so I wonder whats going on. Im going to a retreat next month so Im going to be talking about that. The topic is care for the caregivers. There is an R who claims that Care of the Caregivers is her idea. She has a very big ego and I cant stand the woman and I told a Master Chief she is prolly going to tell everybody that she came up with the idea. Yeah, right like nobody else thought of it, its just you cause you are the greatest thing on this earth and Im just honored to breath the same air as you! I had to work with the person in Kuwait. I cant stand her. Im so glad I dont work with her anymore. Im glad to be home. Im glad my cat is with me again. Im glad I have my car back.

I have pics I want to post but I cant figure out how to do that.....so great, might and powerful admins, how do I do that?

Oh Amaia thinks I should still spell toussel like I normally do cause its my word and Im thinking I will. I need to ponder for a bit.

[Amelia]

Well, the pics I have on CD are too big, so now I have to figure out how to make them smaller.....Damm you KODAK!!! **shakes fist at Kodak!!

On a brighter note, I have a crush. Hes a fellow co-worker but different department and hes very cute and only two years younger than me so thats not too bad. He and I were flirting with one another the past two days. Im considering asking him out for coffee soon. One of my managers suggested it and she noticed that he appeared interested in me. I feel like a 16 year old. Geez!

Only 2 and half hours to go before I get to go home, I have to be here soooo early in the am tommorow!!!

Why do they do this to meeeeeeeee????????????????

[Amelia]

So.............many...............phone........... ......calls..........going................crazy!

My throat is sore for talking so much and Im not saying a whole lot to the people, but I have to remain upbeat.

Damm! I just transfered sombody to a line that isnt ours. Damn!
Anyway, the phones are busy but Im almost out of here. I need to clean my apartment so badly but Im very tired. My cat will want some attention when I get home so naturally I will lie on the couch and he will cuddle up with me and purr and theres nothing as cozy as a purring cat laying on you and purring, so I wont be able to get up its against nature to make a purring cat stop purring. How many time will I write purring in this post?


ah, the lady called back, I apologized and she accepted and was very happy. So, yeah me!

Only 41 more minutes, then I can go home! WOOHOO!

[Amelia]

Well, Im recovered from yesterday. I went home and fell asleep on the couch for 3 hours, I cant nap, I try but its not 20 minute nap like it should be...no I sleep for 3 hours so I dont go to bed until 1230am. Thankfully, I dont have to be in until the afternoon.

Yesterday, I ask another operator what she knows about cute flirty driver boy and she said that he has a g-friend. A girl who works in the restaurant liked him and asked the operator to see if he was available. So she told him some girl liked him and he knew who it was and he said he just met somebody and he liked her and wanted to see how it went and if he wanted to ask a girl out he would.

So, I tell the operator that he was flirting with me the past two days and I was thinking about asking him out for coffee and she suggested that I ask him. So I dont. I then summon the courage up to do it today and wouldnt you know it, he isnt working. I then tell the manager that he has a g-f, and she said that she asked him on christmas and he said no. So, tommorow he works and I will ask him out then. Geez, this is sooo high school. I just dont ask guys out. However, I do need to be more assertive and take life by the horns, not be a observer but a participant and besides hes really cute!!!

[Amelia]

Nothing much happening today, I havent had that much coffee so my brain sorta feels like its in a fog, and people are being retarded on the phone. When I answer I say "Happy Holidays from the Toussel Queen, this Amelia, how may I direct your call?"

Then people will go "IS this the Toussel Queen"

I want to yell "YES YOU DUMB ASS, ARENT YOU F%$#@@ LISTENING?????"

I dont but I want to say it. People just dont listen, Ive drank some Pepsi but it isnt the same as drinking coffee. I have mon and tues off so Im happy about that. My apartment needs to be cleaned so bad! ANd then on Wednesday I work with cute flirty driver so I can ask him out for coffee then. Hey Thanks Mess, for your support and understanding!

Oh and on a final note, Im going to spell toussel just like I used to, its just easier and it just goes. Like calling the pool a pull **push arch into the pull** and saying "FAH!" it just goes. It fits me.

[Amelia]

Cute flirty driver DOES have a gf so I will not be askin him out for coffee. Kinda bummed but I will survive!

Oh and arch, I said F(^&(%(%*% becuase I didnt want to swear and I like using symbols when I type. So F^&*@^*&%#@^&!!!!!!

[Amelia]

Its a brand new year.

So as I mentioned in my last post, cute, flirty, driver hereby mentioned as CFD has a girlfriend. So, I didnt invite him out for coffee and wont. He still flirts but I just think thats the way he is. I have decided that I will flirt, kinda like relearning how to flirt. During the time when my ex and I were trying to work it out, well actually when he was punishing me, I didnt flirt. He could and did and dated and acted like an asshole (Happy arch?) I didnt flirt and kinda lost the art of flirting, which I loved doing. Im a little rusty but Im picking it back up and Im sure since CFD is flirty hence the F in his nickname I can flirt to my little hearts content! So I should be my old flirty self in no time. This makes me happy!!

[Amelia]

Its been snowing pretty heavily off and on for two days now. We have 6 inches, but it seems like more. I finally found one good thing about snow....when you fall on it, it doesnt hurt. I fell down yesterday and it didnt hurt. Thats a first!!!

My dad called today to see how my cat was. He finally got around to asking how I was but he was worried my cat might get cold. I told him that I had both windows opened and a fan going and Im dousing the cat with water, hes almost frozed so I can get him bronzed and ship it to him. Geez. Yeah Dad Im fine!!!!

[Amelia]

Should I be happy cause I now have two little green squares now? Im happy about it but I prolly shouldnt be. Or I shouldnt care. Ah well.

Nothing much has happened lately. Prolly cause I was hibernating. I spent two days in my apartment it was too cold to go outside. Its still cold out but I had to work today.

Saw CFD and he is sooo cute. He has a gf. I have to keep reminding myself that. Its funny, when Im away from him, he has no power, but when I see him BAM! Need to avoid him. He hasnt come into my lair yet. I think a co worker has told him I liked him. AH well, life goes on.

Half the time I think I need a boyfriend but half the time I dont want one. Half the time I want a kid and half the time I dont. I just always assumed that I would have kids, now that Im 32 Im getting up there but there isnt a worthy sperm guy around and Im not going to raise a child on my own just because I want one. My ex husband was trying to get my pregnant while we were married but having problems. I think he was trying to find a reason to stay with me, luckily I didnt get pregnant. I dont want a guy to stay with me only because I have his kid. I just wish that I didnt feel like Im imcomplete becuase Im not married with children. I wouldnt feel imcomplete if I wasnt bombarded with this thought by TV, magazines, books. I still need to work on myself. I need to go to school, I want to visit australia. Having a baby right now would be soooo wrong. This has been on my mind during my hibernation.

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OK, had to take a break... I Will Survive was on the radio, had to stop, and dance and sing. I feel instantly better. It was like somebody was hearing me and needed me to cheer up!

[Amelia]

First off, I would like to thank you for all the encouragement you sent my way. Its appreciated, thank you! **toussels for everybody**

Im actually better today, when I got home my sis called and left a message so I called her back and she was crying, she broke up with her bf. I think the guy is a jerk. Seems he has problems with her that she cant control. Like she doesnt want kids and he has problems with it. Hey, she doesnt want kids bud! She is divorced and he has a problem with that. 64% of all marriages end in divorce! I love my sister and told her that if he cant get past with things that cannot change then she needs to dump him at the curb and find somebody that doesnt care. After I hang up I realize that when Im bummed out about trivial things I get reminded that it could be worse. I wish it wasnt my sister to have worse problems than myself.

Today is a good day, had plenty of caffine thats keeping me cheerful despite the stupid people who call!!

Oh and Mike the Admin God ROCKS!!!!!!

Oh and I cant wait to go to Australia! Of course I need to save up some more money.

[Amelia]

Well today isnt too bad. I had to wake up so early today since I have the am shift. I walked to work since the bus doesnt run that early and its still too icy to drive. I do have to drive this weekend. I have drill. The first drill since I got back from San Diego. I think it will go OK. Im a little nervous, mostly cause I was really supposed to show up earlier and fill out paperwork but I didnt make it up there due to weather and work and well, life. So the active duty bubbas, Im assuming will bitch and yell. Cause, we reservists cause so much work, even though we are the reason why they are there.

My co-worker was telling me that Im going out with her and the other co workers when they go out again, cause CFD will be going also. I told her, hes off limits since he has a gf. She said that he might not anymore. Ah well. I told her I would flirt with him but thats it AND I MEAN IT!!!


We also talked about dating in Spokane and I told her, that I dont know what is worse dating guys who are totally wrong for me (San Diego) or not dating at all (Spokane). She understood. This town is hard to date it. The saying here is Spokane is great for raising a family but sucks if youre single. So, so true.

[Amelia]

Well, I had drill this weekend and I had two days off, hence my absentism here at the the quill. I love this place it feels like home.

Drill went well. Got orders submitted for Mississippi. Got all checked in and it was a boring day on Sunday. Driving was a little trecherous, icy and foggy and some jackass (happy arch?) was tailgating me. Its icy you ass! ITs foggy you doofus!

Oh and sat and sun I got home around 430 and fell asleep around 5 and took a 3 hour nap which made me not want to sleep at the proper time so Sunday being boring I almost fell asleep many times. Also, after eating lunch on drill weekends I totally get sleepy. So maybe drill wasnt well it was sleepytime.

Monday went OK. Had lunch with an ex. He is considerable older than myself and he used to be my english teacher in college. I had this HUGE crush on him when I took his class, he asked me out then but I was dating a guy so I declined, I got married and divorced and during the divorce I saw in the paper that he was going to be at a bookstore doing a reading of his book and signing them so I went and I looked damn good, good hair day, wore my boots that gave me attitude. Anyway he remembered me and wrote his cell number and email address in his book and we went out for coffee and other stuff. Anyway we dated for a bit but he was just for fun. I just needed that, no serious relationship thing, he wasnt capable of a relationship anyway. So the relationship died which was fine and then I was recalled so I called him and we had lunch and now that Im back I called him and I repaid my loan to him.....he loaned me money for a car which everybody then called him my sugar daddy which he wasnt......he was so happy so we have been seeing each other and calling one another. Well monday we went to lunch and then when he dropped me off he kissed me and this man still knows how to kiss. So now my body is like SEE HIM AGAIN!!! I need to but to tell him that Im not doing anything with him except lunches. I dont want to go backwards, there is a reason why he is an ex. So, he wants to see me on thursday so I will tell him then. I kinda told him on monday, I guess I need to be straightforward about it.

Tuesday, nothing exciting happened. I realized that my jigsaw puzzle is totally addictive and nothing is getting cleaned in my apartment because of it but its almost done. Its actually two puzzles a before and after but the two puzzles were in the same bag so you have to figure out which is which. I think Im missing peices hopefully Im not though.