Tossels and thoughts from Amelia

[Amelia]

Im very tired. Its the same ol friday thing. I will have some coffee when I get home. I have tommorow off and thats nice. I need to clean! Dont I always?

My thanksgiving went allright. Went and saw Alexander.....way too long and gory. We then went to Perkins and ate and then went across the street to Fast Eddies for drinks and we played pool and foozball. As we were leaving the bar was getting busier and some of the guys were pretty cute! Then I got home and watched the last 30 min. of the Apprentice.

My sister called me at 830 im the morning yesterday. I went to bed at 4am. I talked to her for a bit and I fell back asleep and then my cat yowling at me woke me up but once I convinced him to hop up on the bed he was fine and I fell back asleep then my parents call me at 10am. why is my family against me sleeping?

well i was hoping that by typing I would wake up and it hasnt happened yet so Im going to get off here and go jump around!

[Amelia]

Which is it
A: People are just extra annoying today
B: Im just really tired.

I think its mostly B with just a dash of A.

[Amelia]

I am not in the best mood. I had an OK day off and today I work late but coming in an having people just look at me when I say hi as if they are thinking who are to to acknowlege me you peice of trash which Im sure they are not thinking that but Im mentrual and moody. Maybe I should eat a chocolate bar.

[Amelia]

I just found out I didnt advance to RP2 and I almost cried. I dont understand why.

I didnt expect anybody to advance to RP2, we were told that RP2 was full so nobody could advance. So I take a look at the results anyway and 3 people advanced. I know one of the guys and Im very happy for him cause if he didnt advance he would have to leave the navy. So maybe Im upset cause I wasnt one of the lucky 3 to advance. I really didnt do very well on the exam. I passed but my score wasnt high enough. They took the 3 highest scores and advanced them. I will be OK. I just need to study more. I hardly did study last time. The next one is in feb, which isnt too far away and when I took the exam in feb 03 I advanced to 3rd class so maybe feb will be lucky for me again.

I was part of a funeral detail, which was presenting the flag and taps played on the bugle. It was very touching. The husband who was a senior chief was in his uniform and he stood up and saluted when taps was played. Taps has a way of touching that button that emotion button. It gives me chills everytime its played. The family was very nice and thanked us for doing it. I consider it a way to thank them for their sacrifice. I get to learn a little bit about each person which is nice. She donated her body to science AND it was indoors (it snowed this morning) so that was nice. I was wearing a skirt so I got lucky. I need to order some uniform pants, I was told pants were prefered so I can wear the leggings and look damn good! I look damn good in the navy blue uniform!

[Amelia]

Im not really in a good mood today. I got not a nice email from my CO in my reserve unit. Might get kicked out of the navy. Dont really want to get into that cause I might get severly depressed if that happens. Oh and then somebody is tousseling here which really shouldnt bother me but it does bother me. Maybe I have been spoiled by y'all who know.

If The Weaver reads this, keep it up, I love your stories. Who are you? I can keep a secret!

Going to start planning my trip to Australia next month. Im hoping my friend, lets call her Towanda! I hope Towanda will come, I have a feeling that she wont be able to afford it. I hope she does come, it will be less scary for me. I will be pming all you aussie quillers so be prepared! YOu have been warned ! **insert evil laugh**

[Amelia]

Im so tired. I went out drinking with two guys in another department. One used to be my crush du jour. He bought me a drink. Well the other guy left and it was just us two and NOTHING HAPPENED. Lets just make that clear. So Im tired and the other guy is teasing me cause the last time he saw me was drinking with a drunk co-worker aso he kept on asking me stuff like 'So wild night last night" "when did you go to sleep" "did you get any sleep" c'mon the guy is married! I do have some limits! Geez! Its my friday and Im going to sleep in and go see a movie and pick up my apartment.

Happy Solstice!!!


its 1132 in the evening why are people calling me wanting to purchase a gift card?

[Amelia]

I just read the last post on Dregys thread and I think he is pregnant.

[Amelia]

Please let Anita be safe!

[Amelia]

Dregsy is not pregnant
Anita is safe.

People are really starting to annoy me.

[Amelia]

Im tired. I have a ton of stuff to say but no initiative to write it all out. I will prolly feel better once I do but I still am too tired. I dont want to bury my head in the sand and forget about all my problems but I am. I need to get my shit together but I have no idea where to start. I need a new start but how does one do that? Wouldnt I need to know that in order to do it? I have now stated that I will go back to school in Sept. Get my degree and get the hell out of Spokane, cause thats part of the problem. My friend wont be going to Australia with me, now Im totally reconsidering even going, which pisses me off cause I want to go but Im chicken and I dont want to be a chicken. I hate being a chicken. I hate some of the people I work with and I dont want to hate people. I need a life. I dont have one. I need to stop reacting to my mother. Its OK that Im fat, alone and do not hold a college degree no matter what my mother thinks. I need to not be scared to talk to people I dont know.

[Amelia]

Yeah, what I stated above!

I feeling somewhat better, Im getting kicked out of the Navy and when I found that out I suddenly felt better, not 100 percent better but better. Talked to my Chaplain about whats going on, and he was pretty good but he then suggested I go to church and we prayed. Sorry Sir but there really isnt a church for pagans.

I think I have to push back my trip to Aussie. I will go but this spring there is a bunch of Navy crap I have to do and I dont want to take so much time off work at the same time. So Im thinking December since I will have Dec off for Winter Break and it will be warm in Australia and I will have an excuse not to visit the family. Yeah my mother is still bothering me. She called me yesterday to tease me about Duran Duran. I didnt take the bite, I just told her I got tickets and Im excited. Then she asked me who I was going with and I told her The Puppet Master (TPM is Towanda, I told her I have named her Towanda and she didnt like that and thought TPM was more enchanted quilly than Towanda) Im supposing mother would have been more happier if TPM was male but I just dont care anymore. Her problems with me being fat, alone and no college degree is her problem not mine and she is not going to make it my problem. This is something the chaplain told me and it makes sense.

My exhusband and I are friends now and have been going out for coffee once a week. He did ask if him and i were going to sleep together and I said no. Im comforatable with the friends thing and Im enjoying it but the next person I sleep with I will have a relationship with. Yes my days of one night stands and friends with benefits phase has ended. However Im not telling anybody that my ex and I are friendly. I dont think they would understand. Im not entirely understanding it but Im not going to analyze it, just going with the flow.

I bought 4 tickets for 4 plays (1ticket each) for interPLAYERS (thats how its spelled) Im excited. I just thought I should go out and watch more live theatre and I got this flyer and the price was good. Im also proud that Im doing this by myself and not waiting until I had a boyfriend to go with. Im going to dress up and go out and enjoy myself.

[Amelia]

I would just like to say that Anita rocks and I want to be like her when I grow up!

[Amelia]

I am soooooooo soooooooooooooo sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired!


Well I went out with two of the security guards at work and I invited The Puppet Master along too since one of my co-workers wanted to meet her. My co-worker is a man ho (MH) and I mean that in the most loving way! I really do love him and I love to flirt with him and I use to have a crush on him but Hes a man-ho! Anyway and The Puppet Master (TPM) and I knew the other guy before him and i worked together now. Anyway so she came and we had a few drinks, I flirted with the bartender and man-ho and TPM flirted also and then we closed down the bar we were at we decided to go to the guys' house. Man-ho is staying at the others house so they are roomates. So we figure out that we need some alcohol and since we cant buy any after 2am (it was 2am) we have to go to TPM apartment to pick up some scotch she has at her house and as her and I are in my car and the guys are in another she reveals that she has always liked the other co-worker and man-ho isnt her cup of tea! (i knew this to be true but I have to let them realize it instead of me telling them) so as the three of us are waiting for TPM to get back outside with the scotch MH decides we at least have to try to get some beer so its decided that I drive MH to the store and the other guy will wait for TPM.

Im really too tired to go on with my story, so yadda yadda yadda Im sleeping on the sofa after watching Monty Python and the Search of the Holy Grail and I hardly got any sleep.

The end.

[Amelia]

I have to say that Mulan is the best Disney movie ever!

[Amelia]

I hate it that it takes one asshole to ruin my day.